....About love and relationship.
Over the past month and a half i realized that i need to start respecting myself more, and standing up and being more bold to, he knows who he is and honestly hes pretty Naive. Heres some advise for a couple of guys out there..."don't tell a girl that she's the one" or at least don't tell me it. Seriously like i'm young and i haven't even had a boyfriend i'v been single the very day i was born. SHOCKING i know. But yeah i don't need to hear that kind of stuff i'm not ready i like to mingle mangle (colorful vocab).
The thing that just grinds my gears are how he tells me that i lead him on and that i never loved him. What B.S. (am i allowed to say that?). Over the past month and a half who started all the fights...who cussed...who hung up the phone with out saying goodbye or in the middle of a conversation. I will always apoligize for my mistake and if i did something wrong then i'm sorry but how am i immature for forgive you. You told me that i was immature for forgiving anyone that apoligize. I know i'm not immature in that subject i'm just opening minded and i give people secound chanced to prove themself better. He keep saying that i didn't like him because i didn't know what to say or i lied I only lied once and that was to protect him. There was another mistake it wasn't good for me to lie to him but still in the end i told him the truth but he just has to be stubborn about everything.
You didn't look at the reason why i lied and that was because i didn't want you to beat yourself up, i'd beat myself up for you. But no you couldn't or just choose not to see the reason and instead you only saw the fact that i lied.
Lets face it you took advantage of the fact that i'm to nice (as conceided as that sounds) I would go with whatever you said and i'd try hard not to mess things up. I can't think of a time that i've cried so much over one guy (SHOCKING cause i told myself i'd never do that--well i was like 7 that time). I only cussed at you once because you started accusing me, yelling and verbally abusing me.
After all of that, after all the hard times and obsticles i went threw to be with you, you actually think you had the right to say 'Hey i don't like you anymore' to blow me off so easily after all i did for you after you hurt me so much. Then to hurt me again when you already knew i was hurting how messed up is that, and to try and make me jealouse or to flirt with one of my friends infront of me with shows that you did not respect me enough to at least give me time to heal the wounds you left. I could have made you jealous or flirted with someone like you did to me. I could have gotten one of my many friends that now hate you to get you. But no i respect you enough not to make you jealouse or flirt infront of someone , i care about you enough not to get you in trouble with one of my friends and to after all the pain and suffering you put me threw to try and still be friends with you and make peace and i honestly was starting to fall for you which makes it harder to find out that it'll only take 3 days to replace me.
I learned a good lesson here that i'm alot more mature then you are and that i can handle tough situations. You hurt me alot in this, but at least i know i can survive something like this but most of all. I learned that i am still a kid and "i love you" they really don't mean alot here, why should i treasure those words when i'm this young. I'll us it as much as i want but for now it has no true value it can be used to a friend or relative but for a relationship right now it means as much to me and saying I love you to a pet animal. I'm not saying that it will always be that way for me but for now i won't value and treasure those words since i'm only a kid theres no point cause right now i'm really not sure if i know that real love is..do you?
Over the past month and a half i realized that i need to start respecting myself more, and standing up and being more bold to, he knows who he is and honestly hes pretty Naive. Heres some advise for a couple of guys out there..."don't tell a girl that she's the one" or at least don't tell me it. Seriously like i'm young and i haven't even had a boyfriend i'v been single the very day i was born. SHOCKING i know. But yeah i don't need to hear that kind of stuff i'm not ready i like to mingle mangle (colorful vocab).
The thing that just grinds my gears are how he tells me that i lead him on and that i never loved him. What B.S. (am i allowed to say that?). Over the past month and a half who started all the fights...who cussed...who hung up the phone with out saying goodbye or in the middle of a conversation. I will always apoligize for my mistake and if i did something wrong then i'm sorry but how am i immature for forgive you. You told me that i was immature for forgiving anyone that apoligize. I know i'm not immature in that subject i'm just opening minded and i give people secound chanced to prove themself better. He keep saying that i didn't like him because i didn't know what to say or i lied I only lied once and that was to protect him. There was another mistake it wasn't good for me to lie to him but still in the end i told him the truth but he just has to be stubborn about everything.
You didn't look at the reason why i lied and that was because i didn't want you to beat yourself up, i'd beat myself up for you. But no you couldn't or just choose not to see the reason and instead you only saw the fact that i lied.
Lets face it you took advantage of the fact that i'm to nice (as conceided as that sounds) I would go with whatever you said and i'd try hard not to mess things up. I can't think of a time that i've cried so much over one guy (SHOCKING cause i told myself i'd never do that--well i was like 7 that time). I only cussed at you once because you started accusing me, yelling and verbally abusing me.
After all of that, after all the hard times and obsticles i went threw to be with you, you actually think you had the right to say 'Hey i don't like you anymore' to blow me off so easily after all i did for you after you hurt me so much. Then to hurt me again when you already knew i was hurting how messed up is that, and to try and make me jealouse or to flirt with one of my friends infront of me with shows that you did not respect me enough to at least give me time to heal the wounds you left. I could have made you jealous or flirted with someone like you did to me. I could have gotten one of my many friends that now hate you to get you. But no i respect you enough not to make you jealouse or flirt infront of someone , i care about you enough not to get you in trouble with one of my friends and to after all the pain and suffering you put me threw to try and still be friends with you and make peace and i honestly was starting to fall for you which makes it harder to find out that it'll only take 3 days to replace me.
I learned a good lesson here that i'm alot more mature then you are and that i can handle tough situations. You hurt me alot in this, but at least i know i can survive something like this but most of all. I learned that i am still a kid and "i love you" they really don't mean alot here, why should i treasure those words when i'm this young. I'll us it as much as i want but for now it has no true value it can be used to a friend or relative but for a relationship right now it means as much to me and saying I love you to a pet animal. I'm not saying that it will always be that way for me but for now i won't value and treasure those words since i'm only a kid theres no point cause right now i'm really not sure if i know that real love is..do you?
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